10.31.04
Here's a Calvin & Hobbes tribute.
10.27.04
Okay... said I wasn't gonna update but... well I say a lot of things. And this is important! I'm upgrading my computer this Halloween weekend (in addition to carving a pumpkin on Friday, gotta commemorate the occasion with the slaughtering of a firstborn pumpkin). Oooh I'm gonna bust out the camera for this one... this be mah upgrade special. I should say that with more energy. THEE UPGRAAAAAAADE SPECIIAAALLLLLLL OF 2004!
So sexy! I have the boyfriend to thank for making this all possible... he gave me many essential components as my awesome birthday present. The cpu... which is an AMD... uhh... 1.8 gighz... whatever AMD people call that in AMD-speak... and for the 2 sticks of 256 mb DDR... among other vastly impressive things. He's a good boyfriend... I may buy his Sim version something nice to compensate for the fact that I can't afford to buy the actual him anything nice. Ha! Yeah, I suck, I know.
Anywho, yes, I will be upgrading this weekend. I wanted to do it last weekend, but things did not go according to plan. But this weekend... yes... this weekend... it's alive! It's alive! I read Frankenstein in my English lit class, and Dr. Frankenstein never actually says that when he creates the monster, that was just a colorful little add-on that came later when they made it into a movie. Along with the bolts in the monster's neck and it being inarticulate. I thought that worthy of mention considering Halloween is so near. Anyways... yeah... upgrading is cool. I don't really have anything that needs saying about it... but I'm so excited... I just want to TALK about it. Yeah... upgrading. I have a 1 gighz celeron right now... 312 mb sdram... nothing particularly impressive going on. But boy after the upgrade... boy howdy... upgrade upgrade upgrade upgrade upgrade upgrade upgrade upgrade upgrade upgrade upgrade upgrade upgrade upgrade! Yeah... so I'm kind of excited. Guess I should go do my chemistry now. Funny how I always think of specials to do when I should be doing homework. What a coinkidink!
10.25.04
I gotta say... I have very little interest these days in writing blog entries. I mean really, outside the everyday goings-on of my life, I just have nothing worth saying to say. I guess I'm in a slump. I think I'm going to take this opportunity to work on the other areas of this site while I neglect this one. I haven't updated my fish section in forever... I'd like to switch my gallery over to the image gallery php script I wrote... I'd like to write a few articles of a how-to nature just for the hell of it... things like that. So I think I'm going to do that. I'll post any updates I complete here so you can keep perfectly up to date... WOW AWESOME!!!
Hopefully I'll return to this part of the website with all new zeal. If not I may have to consider a format change... like some kind of commenting system... or having guest speakers... or changing all my entries to terrible fan fiction where I pretend Morgan Freeman is my next door neighbor or something. I picked Morgan Freeman for that example there because my mom rode in an elevator with him at the Brown Palace this weekend. WOW AWESOME AGAIN!!! Hehe okay I have to go to school now.
10.18.04
So I asked myself the question: which would I rather do- write a big comprehensive entry about the Libertarian party with the upcoming election, or talk about Sims 2. I'll give you one guess which I decided to do...
 So here I am, as a Sim. The resemblance isn't too particularly resembling, I realize. Hell I don't know what I look like. Actually there is a lot of flexibility in character design for the Sims, but the creators just don't have in their library the short slouching VGA-tanned freckled multi-colored hair tomboy look as a standard offering. So I guess for the extent of this little tour you're just going to have to imagine I'm tall, good looking, well proportioned, and not all freaking pale. Of course for all I know that might be how you always imagine me when you read my ramblings. Ha!
Anywhoodles... there's something particularly unsettling about this version of the Sims. First... let's discuss Sim life. Simple beings at first glance, with simple needs, simple desires, and simple lives. They eat, they sleep, they work, they play, they procreate, and they die. Their needs: food, water, and shelter. Secondary needs: sleep, relaxation, hygiene, companionship, love, friendship, job they like, nice potty facilities. Their long term desires: To be liked by their peers, to make good money, to fall in love, to have a family. Their short term desires: To play a game, to have a nice car, to upgrade their computers, to learn how to cook something. Their fears: being rejected by someone they love, being passed over for a promotion, seeing a ghost, missing their carpool.
Anyways, this in essence is the Sims. If you've never played it before, basically its a little game where you get to play Domestic Micromanagement God. You get to create people, and you can make them happy so they flourish, or you can make them miserable till they go crazy and eventually die. Its all on you. So they have all these needs and wants and desires and unique personalities and drives and goals, and here you are holding all the power. What's unsettling about it is the fact that its just like real life. I'm not talking about how realistic the graphics are, I'm talking about how that is pretty much all there is to our pathetic and trivial little existences. Human beings... we're born, we grow up, we have kids and get married and learn to do what we enjoy, and then we get old and die. In the meantime we're afraid of rejection, we want to make friends, we hope someone we love doesn't die. That's it folks. This is your life, and its a 3.5 gig install.
 This shocking realization has given me a different attitude about my own life. Sometimes when I play the Sims a lot, I start to think of myself as a Sim. I think, I should get away from my computer for a while, take a break, attend to my needs. Could use a shower... why not go grab some dinner... maybe I'll go buy that cool new thing I wanted and have been saving up for. That would raise my mood meter for a while. Or maybe I should just stay home and study so I can get an A+ and make my mom proud of me. I imagine these little meters over my head, and I think how I need to get my Fun meter up or I'm not going to be in the mood to do my homework. Its so completely insulting knowing how easily our lives are broken down into these insignificant little parts, and its so easy to imagine that that is all there is to the whole thing.  That happiness is just a matter of mixing the right amount of playing and having fun with comfort and sociality. Sadness and insanity only the result of not getting what you want a few times too many. The absolute platinum-mood bliss you feel upon achieving something really important and difficult for you, and how easily that wears off and you have to go play darts or chess to get happy again. It's just insulting as hell knowing that's all there is to it, isn't it? Well I think so. I guess its not a really big deal by any means... its not like I've turned into a fatalist or anything, it just makes me feel silly sometimes for the silly little things I do in life and for the silly little reasons I do them. Maybe I wish real life was a little less like the Sims (or vice versa). I definitely wish redecorating was as easy as it is in the Sims though.
Anyhow I'm hoping to have a continuing saga of my struggles in Simulating a life I prefer to neglect actually living. I have a lot of great character ideas I need to see through, see if I can't get some real soap-opera style action going. I also just created myself as a character (as seen above) along with the boyfriend, we're sharing a nice little studio and fighting over the only computer as we speak. Isn't that sweet? What's my real boyfriend doing I wonder? Oh who cares. Let's hope his Sim-version behaves anyways or I may have to off him. Life's just too short (it's like 50 days or something) to be stuck with someone that hogs the computer all the time. At least he washes his dirty dishes.
10.11.04
Wow... 8 days since my last update, I'm workin on a record here! Cut the umbilical cord I have. Actually between work, school, and the Sims 2, I have absolutely no time. And accordingly, this will be a brief update. Because my life is SO darn INTERESTING I need to keep people POSTED! Oh yeah.
So let's see... week in review. Had my birthday, that was cool. Got a new video card, the Sims 2, some money from the family, and an awesome group of gifts from the boyfriend that will be detailed at a later date. Went out to eat with my mom and my brother last last Sunday for a pre-birthday celebration since my birthday fell on a Tuesday. We ate at Buca de Beppo, which is a pretty okay place as far as Italian food goes. Last week is a blur otherwise, worked, went to school, had a Macroeconomics test on Monday that I found out today I got an 81% on... that could've been a little better but that's okay, first tests are always tricky since you never know what to expect. Reading Mary Shelley's Frankenstein in my lit class... thoroughly enjoying that. Very seasonal as well.
I had a few rants to write... about how to play Sims 2 you have to uninstall all cd emulation software such as CloneCD, Nero, and Alcohol 120%, that surely pissed me off. Also meant to rant about this kid that I wanted to kill at my campus... which is apparently the cool place to go to harass people into signing bullshit petitions or bullshit people into buying magazine subscriptions. I guess I waited too long, and now the urge to vent has passed. I'm over it... life goes on. Blah blah.
Hmm. Wow y'know what's awesome? The freaking Auraria campus library. Wow. Their QA76 computer book section is like... 2 entire huge long tall rows. That's so awesome. While the versions are still a bit lagging (who can blame them with how often new software versions come out), the selection is vast and terrificly sexy. Oh, and there's a lot of other kinds of books there too I guess. Cool place. Hmmm. Yeah okay I have chemistry to do now... buh bye. Best update ever, I know! Oh... my calendar is sure still set to the month of September. Whoopsy doodle. Oh well... not like it's THAT different month to month, right?
10.03.04
I've decided to start going by my Ninja Burger name, Heihachi Fujita -san. So from now on, when you say "Hey Sarah!", I'm not going to answer. Heihachi Fujita -san. It will grow easier for you to say with time. I wonder if their burgers are any good? Or, real for that matter?
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