Oh man... I made the funniest joke today. I had gotten this bathroom scale out to weigh this stereo I have. Then, when I was done with it, I put the scale on top of my head and said "Now I'M the scale - how much do YOU weigh? Haha!". It was great, you had to be there really. Yeah... and then this one time... at band camp...god I'm an embarassment.

I wish they'd make it so you could plug a monitor straight into a dvd player. I don't really know about all the technicalities involved in that, but it seems like in my little brain that should work. Like, input and output, mayn. I'm putting a bunch of broken crap on craigslist so if you ever wanted some great broken electronic crap, now's your chance. It's actually mostly my boyfriends broken crap, and it's in my mom's garage. How this translates into my broken crap, who knows.

I played the Sims for like 8 hours last night. It's really easy to get lost in that game. Your whole life can pass you by while you're running the lives of those little imaginary people. I wasn't going to cheat, but then I bought them (or had them buy) this hacked computer you can get that will hack the game from within the game, so all of the sudden all of my little people started getting all kinds of job promotions and winning money and stuff, and at first I didn't really understand why. I figured it out eventually though. So I guess that's probably cheating. Playing the real way kind of sucks though. What sucks the very very most about that game though is that every little thing takes a Sim forever to do. To check the mail, take out the trash, these are like 30 minute tasks for Sims. They can't do anything quickly. So that's pretty retarded. I dunno why they made it that way, but I hope they figured something better out for the next one cuz that's frustrating as hell. Plus the dog you can get starves if you don't feed it I think around twice a day. So you forget to feed him once, and he just dies. That's pretty pathetic. Then you have your Sim go clean up his dead body, and they're like "Yuck!" as they dump his body into a trash bag and dump him in the garbage hehe. Heartless bastards. I should really get a life of my own.

I cleaned my car today... gave it a bath, vacuumed it all out, armor-all'd (I dunno what else you'd call that process) all the interior, so it's looking all sexy again. And thanks to the advice of Mack, I sold another book on Amazon, something I didn't know about until he recommended it after I bitched about my school not buying books back. I think this semester to protest my school's book buying and selling shenanigans I'm going to buy all my books online for cheaper. Then I'm going to write a scathing article about why their book store sucks and how no one with half a brain should shop there. Then I'm going to print a thousand copies and post them all over the school. Then everyone is going to read the article, save money, and the school will sell no books and will waste a bunch of money, and the system will be balanced out again between seller and consumer (in other words we'll stop getting ripped off). Then, after the students throw a parade for me, I will get kicked out of school and I will write a scathing article about that, but I won't have anywhere to post it.

Really though I would like to do something. As I see it, the fact that you have to go to a bunch of trouble to find out what book your class is using tells me they're trying to keep you from shopping somewhere else other than the school's book store, which to me seems unfair. If they want to run this great business where they make money off students, that's cool. But don't monopolize the whole thing by making it difficult for people to work around it if they don't feel the need to be taken advantage of. That's just kind of unethical, it's a school for goodness sake. I wouldn't have a problem with a real business doing that stuff, but I kind of expect better from a school, and they've led me to believe that I should. I mean, we're paying those bastards... and this is how they thank us? Well there are 60 cent soda machines, so I guess that makes up for some of it. But not all of it. Hmph. We'll see I guess. What will probably happen is that I will be all mad about it, then I'll end up talking to some teacher that will tell me that all the book ISBN's for classes are listed somewhere on some wall and I just didn't know about it, so then I'll be all pissed for nothing. How anticlimactic eh!

No bids yet on my ebay webpage auctions... like 5 days left. Competition is pretty rough... take this guy here: " E-comerce website softwear" for $235! Hope he didn't write the softwear eh? I guess you can be a bad speller and not be a bad seller... I'm just not sure how.

I put a few designs up for sale on ebay today... that should be interesting. Go check out my listings here and here. I've started them at $10, which includes a $40 hosting fee for a year, so that's already a pretty sweet deal. Of course I'm hoping they will get above that, or I won't have made any money heh. It will be interesting to see how much interest there is out there for such a thing.

In other news... I'm downloading some Family Guy episodes. The cool part about having a lousy memory (I've probably said this before, I don't remember) is that you can watch a show you haven't seen for a few months, and it's like new again because you forgot it all. Yeah, that part is pretty neat.

Sims 2 is coming out soon folks... that makes my heart go aflutter. I really like the Sims, that game is definitely one of my all time favorites. I was never as much into the people stuff as I was into designing houses and furnishing them and all that, but the people part was pretty okay, and all the expansions I've had kicked ass (plus you get more custom doors and furniture and shit hehe). The Sims 2 looks pretty badass though. They're going to make it so you start as a kid and grow up as the same character, so the decisions you make actually shape the person you become. What a great idea. And you'll be able to build attics, decks, and on hillsides. My heart really is racing... I can't wait, I really can't. Hooray! They're going to make it so you can design your own character too... it's everything I'd ever hoped. Sadly I just realized it isn't going to come out until February or March. Guess I have time to save up $50 before then. The Sims is actually a game I'll buy instead of download. That's saying something "wright" there (obscure pointless pun intended). I can't wait to see all the new wall paper designs!!! I could've made a great umm, house builder and furnisher.

Anyhow, God bless America from sea to shining sea and I'm out.

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Oh God. I just made the mistake of looking to see what kind of blogs other girls have. Oh God. It was... horrible. Horrible. I have to throw up now. I have to throw up my brain ahhhh! Man... chicks suck.

The sad thing about the internet is that it's a constant reminder of how unremarkable everyone is. Everyone you meet... even yourself. You are most likely just like someone else somewhere else, and they probably think they're pretty unique and different too. It makes me want to throw up, seriously. I don't really mind that other people might think or act like I do, that's okay. That's kinda cool even, I like imagining other versions of me are running around out there spreading our ideas and stuff. I'm hardly an original work anyhow. I just don't want to know about all those other people. My version of me can't handle all that competition, it makes me really insecure. I don't want to meet them, or come into any kind of contact with them or anything. That's crappy. Crappy as hell. It's like being in a big field full of flowers. Every flower is beautiful in the field, but there's a whole field of them. One dies, and you don't even notice. You can't even single one out. They're only really beautiful when you pick one and look at it on it's own, then you can actually appreciate all the colors and the fragrance and all that junk. I just want to be picked. I want a damn display case. I guess that's what a blog is essentially. The problem now is that every flower is in a display case. So essentially, you have a field of display cases, which returns everyone back to the unremarkable state they were originally found in. I guess that's just the nature of the world. Now it's simply a matter of building flashier display cases I guess, and advertising better. Puke again. Totally. I don't think I'm going to look at other peoples' blogs any more.

I'm gonna go eat a bag of M&M's. Some other version of me somewhere is probably doing the same thing after thinking the same stupid shit. I'm going to hunt them down... it'll be easy actually. Because if they really think like me, they're going to just come hunt me down, so I won't have to hunt them down. But if they REALLY think like me, they'll be thinking the same, so then neither of us will get hunted down OR murdered. Tricky... like trying to fake out your reflection in a mirror. Maybe I'll put out an ad that says I'm looking for people just like me... but maybe people just like me already have... that'd be convenient. Unless they thought that as well. Yes, this is going to be tricky. Hmmm.

I really like South Park. That's not a big deal right there, but what I really like about South Park is that my own morals fall in line almost exactly with the writers of South Park, the blonde guy with the funny name and the other guy with the frizzy hair. They think a lot like me. They're actually really funny though. Maybe I could've been a writer for South Park if I wasn't so damn unfunny. It's a great show anyway. I like how there's usually some kind of moral, because A) it's corny and B) it's actually a good moral, and something I totally agree with. Sometimes I dream that they write South Park just for me, like they secretly know of me and want to make shows that I'll like. I like to imagine Trey Parker calling me one day and being like "Sarah you're so cool, we were just wondering if you'd wanna come hang out with us some day" and I'd be all like "Oh my God, I was just thinking the same thing about you guys! I would totally love that, I'm on my way to South Park right now to chill in your million dollar hot tub with you guys and make fun of Jews and stuff. Seeya soon!". That'd be so cool. Damn. Damn. Great show anyways... my long overdue review of the greatest show on earth next to those other shows I like more. I also like how the kids age, yeah that's neat.

So that's it, that was Christmas. I'll have some nice family pictures to post soon, that should be real exciting for everyone who doesn't have a clue who any of my family are. I guess next on the agenda is New Years Eve. People really party down on New Years Eve, but I've never been much of a partier to begin with. I went to Denver one year to watch fireworks, and that was cool. I think I was too young to drink. Then I went another year with my boyfriend at the time who didn't drink, so I didn't drink that year either, and there were no fireworks. So I guess in theory this year I could get all trashed and stand out on some street corner in Denver with thousands of complete strangers and some bums and watch fireworks. What I'm doing in reality is hanging out with my friends from highschool. My friend KT is throwing an "adult-like" cocktail party, so I guess we're going to get dressed up all fancy then pretend we're adults and drink martinis or cosmopolitans or other adult sounding drinks I've never had. That should actually be really fun. I'd rather just hang out with friends at someone's house than deal with all the bullshit of going somewhere crowded and deal with the cold and the expenses. Yep. My brother has to work, which is sad, but I'm planning on visiting him at his work at some point during the night. Dunno how crowded his restaurant will be. So yeah, that'll be New Years Eve. Then it'll be next year, 2004. I will probably write another sad year in review to look back at how worthless my time on earth has been, then I will make some joke about how I still have time to do better. It will be bittersweet. Shoot... maybe I should just write that entry right now. I'm so predictable. I know exactly what I'm going to write. Totally.

Anyhow, I hope everyone had a Merry Berry Christmas. Keep safe and all that, happy holidays etc.

My next few days will hopefully be spent productively while waiting for New Years Eve. I had set out originally to make 50 designs to have to sell on Jamesondesigns.com, but I realized my time was better spent just making some then setting up an ordering system. So that's all done... and I have 15 up right now. I'm going to add to the designs incrementally. I also need to work on the ordering scripts too, I'm not exactly a perl guru so they could still be a little more primed. I really need to conquer my fear of arrays. I still dunno when to use one, and I'm pretty uncertain on how to use one. Which is of course silly. But I'll have to pick it up eventually, so I'm not too worried. Yes Sarah, that's very interesting.

My latest invention idea has probably already been invented like most of my ideas, but I'm going to throw it out there anyhow. I have all these things that come unplugged, from curling irons to surge surpressors. Now I don't really know why they all want to droop and then come unplugged, but my fantastic idea is making some kind of harness that will strap to the sides of the outlet cover and keep a plug in place after you plug it in. In my mind, the design involves sleek curvey stretchy rubber stuff and they adjust for different kinds of plugs. If I make a prototype though, it will probably consist more of rubber bands and duct tape. Ideally each cord could come with it's own little attachment to keep it plugged in. I have to think of a clever name for it though... let's see. The Outlet Buddy! That sounds dirty. Keep-it-plugged? Dirty too. Cord-stay-plugged-in? Adapters for Loose Outlets? Plug That! I like Plug That. It's kind of sassy... like Talk to the Hand. And everyone loves Talk to the Hand.

Although I'm not particulary tired, I guess I have to go make some effort at sleeping. Maybe I will dream of clever cheap ways to advertise for jamesondesigns. That'd be helpful. I know I won't though.

Merry Christmas from The Jamesons

Wednesday, December 24, 2003

Well, it's Christmas Eve. I really like Christmas Eve, usually more than I even like Christmas Day. The cool thing about Christmas Eve is that you know that even if you have a great time tonight, it doesn't have to end, there's still tomorrow. I kinda wish all holidays were two days long with the same half day then day off construction. Yep. That'd be cool.

My family has a pretty good Christmas-time construct. On Christmas Eve we get together with my mom's side of the family and have dinner, and open presents from that side. Then on Christmas day, first my family opens all the presents we got for eachother and we go through all our stockings to see what Santa left us (we still believe in Santa of course). Then we go over to my dad's side of the family's house and have dinner with them. Two days of good food, with good desserts, and lots of laying around being full and catching up with all the family you haven't seen for a while. It's a good time really. I guess I enjoy that portion of it more than I used to as a kid, Christmas day used to be kind of torturous because the adults were so adult, I couldn't really enjoy any of the conversation. That's getting better though, so that's cool. I guess being less of a greedy bastard brat child might play a part also, heh.

In addition to having a good Christmas-time construct, my family also has some good traditions. We always watch National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation, every year. And we usually try to watch Scrooged, but we don't always get that one in. That's important though. We have present opening traditions too... as kids we were allowed to open one present when the street light went on. That used to be so awesome, we'd just stare at the street light forever trying to will it to turn on. Then when we got to the actual present unwrapping session, we'd always take turns and go around from youngest to oldest, so I was always 3rd to open my presents and then my brother would go after me, and we'd go around until all the presents were gone. We get presents from my aunt and uncle in Virginia, who I don't know very well. They've sent us some real wacky stuff over the years, we always joke about the legendary sequinned mini skirt they bought my mom when me and Josh were little. If you know my mom, that's pretty darn funny. My brother actually got into some trouble with my aunt for never sending a thank you note for any of his presents a year or two ago, so now we always joke about our aunt sending him something really mean. Good times.

While I haven't really felt like it's Christmas as much, although I must've wrapped a hundred presents and listened to a hundred Christmas songs, I'm always sad when it's gone. I guess it's sad that it only comes one time a year. I wish my family all got together more often, like maybe every 2 months or something. But I guess it's easy to get busy doing stuff in your own life and lose track of all the family you don't talk to all the time. Oh well. When I have kids, I'm going to make sure they know all their family really well. I'm still not sure how I'm related to half the people I spend Christmas Day with, and at this point I feel kind of bad asking. I'm going to make sure my kids know all about their relatives though. And I'm definitely going to carry on all the traditions of my family on to my own family when the time comes. But let's hope that's not for many years.

Well, maybe not the most interesting post, but that's okay. I haven't been updating for crap anyways, so it hardly matters anymore. Plus, there's all these sweet Christmas animated gifs I stole from df3.net... that should count for something.

I'm really starting to question whether anyone in the world ever gets my emails. I've sent out like thousands of emails from at least 4 different addresses, and more often than not, people don't respond. I was thinking this, so I sent myself an email from each account I have to each account I have. All were received fine. So by my own observation, my email being broken doesn't seem to be the case. And yet it still seems more unlikely that every single person I send email to doesn't reply. This isn't even just with stupid emails that don't require a reply... this is with big lengthy emails that ask questions and stuff. I don't get it. And this has been going on for a long time.

I noticed once at my work that some spam blockers will block based on my email client, The Bat!, on the basis that "it's known as being used by spammers". Yeah that's great, thanks retards. So I wonder if maybe my messages just get filtered into oblivion? I think though, that most spam blocking software sends a message back to the person to let them know that their message didn't get through. But I could be wrong on that. Are people just unreliable as hell? Does no one else check their email as often as I do? Are people just bad about responding? I have no idea. I'm going to turn on delivery confirmation, which was something I didn't realize I could do. So this way I'll know if it sends okay, but I won't have to rely on someone else to send that queer little reading confirmation thing. Ugh. Stuff pisses me off.

Well my finals went rather well. My Java final only took me 3 minutes and 47 seconds, which kicks ass, plus I got a 93% on it. So that's cool. My math final was okay too, I think I actually bumped my grade up to a B if I did as good as I think I did. I'll know my official grades next week some time I guess.

I went to sell my books back of course, and of course they only took half my stupid books back. The other ones, totalling in $120, are completely worthless now because they're using a different book next semester. I bet those assholes think it's pretty funny to just sell a version of a book then make another one so everyone that bought the first version now just has a worthless lump of ex-tree. What a waste. I barely even used those books hehe. Maybe someone will want them on ebay or somewhere stupid. That'd be cool. It's a shame for them to just go to waste, but I'm sure as hell not going to donate them to my school like they want me to. They have a box where you can put your books they don't buy back if you're some kind of rich fag that can bear to just give all the stuff you paid good money for away for nothing. I'm not falling for that hippie crap.

So anyhow I guess I'm free from school for now. If all goes well I should only have 2 more semesters, spring and summer of 2004 until I graduate with an associates. It seems pretty close now, that means I could be done by the end of July of next year. Two seasons away. Two years is really not so long. I'm sure going to know a lot of math by then. I'm going to graduate with a lot more credits than I need just because of all the math I have to take to catch up hehe. My parents told me dropping out of highschool and not doing math there would really come back to haunt me when I'm older and want to go to college. I laughed and told them I'd never ever go to college. That was many years ago... how things change :) I hate it when other people are right.

My hair is undergoing some serious transitioning... I'm trying to bleach the top layer so I can do something drastic with it, but it's really hard to bleach out dye, so now it's like half bleached with some red and some brown and even some orange, pretty terrible. Oh well, at least it's different. I really get sick of having the same hair all of the time. Other girls wear jewelry and accessorize, I just change my haircolor. Whee. I'm eyeing a really really bright reddish color. My mom said she's going to knit me a hat to wear for all our Christmas family events if I dye my hair and it looks bad. She's so proud of me she wants to hide me under a hat.

Next week marks my first week where I get to focus totally on working. So I'm going to work. I think I'm going to make a million designs, just kind of a design database, so when people do want something from me I can just whip one right out. That'd be good. I can even start that now. I think I'll try to make 50 by this time next week, that's a good goal. That's a lot of designs... I guess probably as many as I've done in my life. Seven or eight a day. Better get started heh. Ho hum.

Haven't updated in a while, let's see... what's new. I have a final tomorrow, that's not so much fun. Due to poor planning I'll also have all this time to kill. I have an English class, which should last roughly half an hour, then I'll have an hour and 15 minutes to kill until I have another class which will only be twenty minutes long, afterwhich I'll have 2 hours to kill before my next class. I think this sort of crap represents one of the problems I have with my college. Teachers have so many days they have to have class, but their schedules get all messed up if they get sick or we have some freak blizzard or whatever, and the schedule just can't recover. So then for whatever reason, we have to show up to class for 20 minutes to wrap up whatever couldn't be wrapped up in a more organized efficient manner on an earlier date. The whole thing wreaks of a lack of organization. Luckily I'll be able to use that bountiful amount of time to study for my math final. My math final should be interesting, I guess I can get a low C on it and still pass the class okay, so that's comforting. I'm pretty happy with C's in math too, I'm such a math retard a C is a serious accomplishment in my book. Now if only I could lower all my standards like I do for math, I'd be a really successful underachiever. I guess it's not in the cards for me. My GPA is gonna suck this round regardless. No letters from the Psi Wanna Frienda sorority I guess. I missing having a perfect GPA. I guess I'd be willing to trade it in if it'd somehow make me less of a nerd, but I know that's not possible. Instead I'm just an idiot with no recourse. Hate that.

Speaking of school (what the hell else would I have to talk about), I think I'm going to put a hit out on my English teacher. I guess I could actually get in trouble for saying that these days, heh. Really though, I don't know what his problem is. I go to his class, and I've been to a solid majority of them, only missed 2 I think. I never participate, which is why I guess he thinks it's cool for him to not know my name or acknowledge my existence. Twice now when he's gone to hand back assignments, he's read my name out loud, and as I'm looking right at him, he's flipped it the back of the stack assuming I'm not there. I guess I could throw something at his head, or shout some kind of offensive slur to get his attention, but should that really be necessary? I don't know what the hell the problem is. Do teachers get pissed when you don't participate in their classes? Do they take it personally I wonder? Maybe he has some ghetto ass grudge against me for not participating. That'd be pretty stupid. It's not like I don't care. It's just that I don't participate. Oh well... only have him as a teacher for one more day. I suppose I can handle that. And if I can't, there's always violence to fall back on. Good old reliable violence.

I think I accomplished less today than I have in months... what a great feeling. Any my goodness, it's almost my bedtime. Yawwwwwwn.

Well well. This week is my last week of work, and next week will be my first week of strictly independent work. It's a good time to be alive! Shitty time to start a business probably, luckily I don't have any house payments. I guess technically I had this good old business idea in March or somewhere thereabouts, which was when I initially made an attempt at it. However, my attempt was pathetic, my efforts unfocused, and I failed. I was a different person then. This time I really do have something to prove. If I fail, it'll be because I didn't want to succeed. If I'm too stupid or lazy to make money doing what I enjoy for myself, then I deserve to work some shitty job for some shitty boss earning some shitty wage. It's the natural order of things.

I've been pretty busy of late. Christmas shopping, school stuff, that kind of crap. I'm planning on doing the majority of my shopping online this year, so that should be nice. Malls really suck this time of year, I hope to avoid them all season if possible. Power to the people. Pay less for stuff, even it out with shipping. BUT, the advantage of having all the shit delivered right to your door. Can't go wrong really.

Well I'm tired, and I really have nothing remarkable to report.